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alhamdulillah bisa ketemu ramadhan lagi tahun ini.. bulan yg paling aku seneng baik secara spiritual maupun fisikal. secara fisikal, jelas-lah… aku bisa diet :p ngirit duit bulanan krn gak beli makan siang, sehat krn maem teratur, terus jg olahraga reguler tiap mlm.. knp? krn tarawih di tempatku 23 rokaat dg imam yg bacaannya hampir kayak org nge-rap… duh jd mirip aerobik deh… eh, ini tmasuk kategori ngomongin org gak ya…???? aku cuma bdoa aja semoga tarawih-ku diterima dengan kondisi yg spt itu..

kalo dari segi spiritual… lebih banyak deh kayaknya. sholat rajin.. tepat waktu, bo’.. ditambah qobliyah+ba’diyah pula plus sholat2 sunnah lainnya.. biasanya.. ya.. kadang2 mepet jam, smp kadang krg khusyu krn diburu waktu.astagfirullah..<br />terus jg rajin sedekah, masjid2 penuh, gak ngomongin org lain, dimana2 org jg pakaiannya tertutup krn sungkan dg bulan ini, org2 lebih bisa ngendalikan emosi. pokoknya bnr2 pemandangan menyenangkan dan memberi perasaaan menyejukkan selama bulan ramadhan.

tp jgn harap pemandangan dan perasaan spt itu ada di bulan2 lain… ngimpiii.. hmm…knp ya..? pengen rasanya ramadhan terus…

have you ever feel temporary insanity? when there’s a ‘wild part’ of you that want to come out and do some crazy stuff you know it’s not right.. but this feeling wont last long… when you ‘recover’, you’ll feel that you’ve done something bad and you know that you shouldnt’ve done that. and when you move on with your life, you’ll feel there’s a black spot in your life because you follow that insanity. I know you probably said that ‘when you know it’s wrong, then why you did it?’ Well honey…, that’s why i called it insanity. it’s temporary because it doesnt last long and it happen on certain moments. moments i cannot describe and moment i cannot predict. it just happen.

and now.. i feel it.. that insanity. consume my time and energy just to make me stop thinking about it. dont want to follow it. pray to God for mercy and guide, for i’m sure He knows what’s best for me and will not leave me. ask for more strength to stay on the right path.

hopefully this will end soon… 

when i retrun from my official assignment (unfortunately–hoping it would be a holiday…) in lombok, i finally have the urge and courage to ride on my bike. finally.. after 9 whole months i just stare at it and think a way to ride it.
on one sunny saturday, my sis make me ride it and voila… i just feel confident and know i can do it.. so the next day and the day after it i ride it to my office.

ofcourse it wouldnt be complete without my driving license. so on 9th sept me+my sis went to police dept to make it. after 4 torchering hour, the process finish, but i couldnt collect the driving license on the same day because they ran out a card! what an excuse..! so i have to be patient for 3 days. i decided to leave my bike at home, because i dont feel ’safe’ riding it without the license. and on thursday, my sis brought the driving license, and i can ride my bike again on friday. Finally…..

Finally i ride on my bike..
Finally i have a driving license…