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hmmm.. sbel banget sm sifat/perilaku yg satu ini.. saking sbelnya smp pengen kategoriin aja bingung, dia termasuk sifat ato perilaku. kayaknya sih perilaku ya..

baru2 aja aku dpt imbas dari perilaku satu ini. sbel+bt bgt jelas…!! make me feel so damn useless..! i dont understand why some people like to do this kind of attitude. i mean if you really work, then you dont have to do such thing to ’show’ yourself to the boss.

perilaku gini ini ngerugiin diri sendiri dan orang lain tentunya.. setiap kali si ’suspect’ melancarkan aksinya, pasti org lain/ partner kerjanya jadi amat sangat dirugikan krn dia cuman pengen ‘expose’ kerjanya tok… what an attitude! dikira yg lain gak kerja apa..? dikira ni kantor cuman dia aja yg kerja..? dikira cuman dia aja yg bisa handle kerjaan itu? please..give me a break!

dia gak sadar bahwa dia juga ngerugiin dirinya sendiri… berangkat dari rumah niatnya udah bener, bekerja untuk ibadah. nah kalo di kantor kelakukannya kayak gitu.. ya sami mawon, gitu loh..!

hm pokoknya intinya (pengulangan kata ya..?) sikap carmuk adalah sikap yg amat sangat tidak terpuji, merugikan orang lain, dan bikin sbel+bt. dan org yg melakukan hal ini bisa dikategorikan sebagai ’sampah kantor’

Suit with my mood today…

Angin by Dewa…

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Angin tolonglah aku sedang jatuh cinta

Tapi aku tak punya nyali tuk katakan

Bahwasanya setiap hari  ku merindukan dia

Angin masukkan aku ke dalam mimpinya

Jadikan aku ratu dan dia rajanya

Buat dia selalu memikirkan diriku

Angin katakan padanya bahwa aku cinta dia

Angin sampaikan padanya bahwa aku butuh dia

Angin tancapkanlah busur panah cintaku

Tancapkanlah cepat tepat di jantung hatinya

Sebelum hatinya jadi  beku dan membatu

semakin jauh ku mengenalmu
ku mengerti dirimu sehari-hari
semakin aku memujakanmu
mengagumi dirimu sehari-hari

semakin dalam
diriku tenggelam
kedalam samudra
cinta yang dalam

semakin hari semakin cinta
semakin hari semakin rindu
semakin dalam perasaan kasih dan sayangku
kepada kamu

semakin lama kuredam hatiku
semakin keras badai asmaraku
semakin aku menyadari
ku tak bisa bila tak ada dirimu

alhamdulillah bisa ketemu ramadhan lagi tahun ini.. bulan yg paling aku seneng baik secara spiritual maupun fisikal. secara fisikal, jelas-lah… aku bisa diet :p ngirit duit bulanan krn gak beli makan siang, sehat krn maem teratur, terus jg olahraga reguler tiap mlm.. knp? krn tarawih di tempatku 23 rokaat dg imam yg bacaannya hampir kayak org nge-rap… duh jd mirip aerobik deh… eh, ini tmasuk kategori ngomongin org gak ya…???? aku cuma bdoa aja semoga tarawih-ku diterima dengan kondisi yg spt itu..

kalo dari segi spiritual… lebih banyak deh kayaknya. sholat rajin.. tepat waktu, bo’.. ditambah qobliyah+ba’diyah pula plus sholat2 sunnah lainnya.. biasanya.. ya.. kadang2 mepet jam, smp kadang krg khusyu krn diburu waktu.astagfirullah..<br />terus jg rajin sedekah, masjid2 penuh, gak ngomongin org lain, dimana2 org jg pakaiannya tertutup krn sungkan dg bulan ini, org2 lebih bisa ngendalikan emosi. pokoknya bnr2 pemandangan menyenangkan dan memberi perasaaan menyejukkan selama bulan ramadhan.

tp jgn harap pemandangan dan perasaan spt itu ada di bulan2 lain… ngimpiii.. hmm…knp ya..? pengen rasanya ramadhan terus…

have you ever feel temporary insanity? when there’s a ‘wild part’ of you that want to come out and do some crazy stuff you know it’s not right.. but this feeling wont last long… when you ‘recover’, you’ll feel that you’ve done something bad and you know that you shouldnt’ve done that. and when you move on with your life, you’ll feel there’s a black spot in your life because you follow that insanity. I know you probably said that ‘when you know it’s wrong, then why you did it?’ Well honey…, that’s why i called it insanity. it’s temporary because it doesnt last long and it happen on certain moments. moments i cannot describe and moment i cannot predict. it just happen.

and now.. i feel it.. that insanity. consume my time and energy just to make me stop thinking about it. dont want to follow it. pray to God for mercy and guide, for i’m sure He knows what’s best for me and will not leave me. ask for more strength to stay on the right path.

hopefully this will end soon… 

when i retrun from my official assignment (unfortunately–hoping it would be a holiday…) in lombok, i finally have the urge and courage to ride on my bike. finally.. after 9 whole months i just stare at it and think a way to ride it.
on one sunny saturday, my sis make me ride it and voila… i just feel confident and know i can do it.. so the next day and the day after it i ride it to my office.

ofcourse it wouldnt be complete without my driving license. so on 9th sept me+my sis went to police dept to make it. after 4 torchering hour, the process finish, but i couldnt collect the driving license on the same day because they ran out a card! what an excuse..! so i have to be patient for 3 days. i decided to leave my bike at home, because i dont feel ’safe’ riding it without the license. and on thursday, my sis brought the driving license, and i can ride my bike again on friday. Finally…..

Finally i ride on my bike..
Finally i have a driving license…

Right now i’m so crazy in love with this song Stars are blind sang by Paris Hilton.
Luckily i can get the lyrics. check it out.

In August there will be so many holidays. Hmm… i’m planning to take a trip to Jakarta and Bandung. Refresh my mind and meet my lovely boyfriend at the same time.. ;p i guess second reason is stronger than the first one

i just cant wait to have the trip, start to imagine etc2. then one day, there’s this news about earthquake in west java. ggiiii!!! this may cause trouble to my plan.. with this big issue of earthquake, i dont think my mom would let me go.. huhuhuhu.. i’m dying to go, i want to go, i need to go..!

hopefully this thing will over soon, and i still can go for my trip. lets hope for the best. chayo!

as ussual, I never catch up movie series that shown on tv. the reason is simply because i dont want to tie-up with the showing time which requires me to be at home just to watch the series. i dont want to miss all the fun out there only because of movies. i mean, we never know when the fun comes, right.. ;p

so one day, i have the chance to see one korea drama series which already finish showing in Indonesia - Jewel in The Palace-. it turn out that i like it so much. being very curious, i ask my boyfriend about the availability of the movie. Luckily, last weekend, i receive the whole series of the drama from my lovely-kindhearted-caring-loving boyfriend

so on monday, i started to watch the series. Within 2 days, i have came to the 37th episode. Last night i even watch it until 3am! boy oh boy… not only i stayed-up during the movie, i also cry.. no no.. not cry, weep exactly.. My mom got very surprised to see my reaction. i used to laugh at my sisters who got carried away when they see a movie, and now…

this morning when i go to work, i saw my eyes got puffy because of my last night tears. i know maybe some people who saw it might think that i have a problem with my boyfriend, or maybe i was being scolded by my mom; what they dont know is… i weep over a movie. Please deh!

disini kau dan aku terbiasa bersama menjalani kasih sayang bahagia kudenganmu. pernahkah kau menguntai hari paling indah. ku ukir nama kita berdua. disini surga kita. bila kita mencintai yg lain mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar. sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah sayang ku tak kan hilang. if u love somebody could it be this strong. i will fight to win our love will conquer all. wouldn’t reach my love even just one night. our love will stay in my heart my heart.

pernahkah kau menguntai hari paling indah. ku ukir nama kita berdua. disini surga kita. bila kita mencintai yg lain mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar. sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah sayang ku tak kan hilang.